I See You

We have had  more rougher days lately than good ones. I am working really hard and looking through the lens that Cody looks through daily and it reminds me that my days are not so bad.  I struggle when times get tougher to post a blog because I like to keep the positivity. But I also have to be true to myself and remember the purpose for my writing is hopes to help others and for my own selfish reasons, it’s my therapy too.

Several weeks ago an amazing Mom named Francheska who I literally gravitated to at a Mom’s Night Out with the National Autism Association of North Texas over a year ago and she received a text she posted from a friend of hers.

I see you

I See You

I see you running your child to therapy when your friends are running their kids to Little League or ballet.

I see you slipping out of the conversation when your friends are all chiming in about milestones and test grades.

I see you constantly juggling appointments and meetings.

I see you sitting at your computer for hours researching what your child needs.

I see you cringe when people whine about what feels like petty things.

I see you spread thin but still going the extra mile for your family.

I see you digging for depths of strength you never dreamed you had.

I see you showing appreciation to the teachers, therapists and medical professionals who serve your child with you.

I see you rising early in the morning to do it all again after another chaotic night.

I see you when you’re hanging on to the end of your rope for dear life.

I know you feel invisible, like nobody notices any of it. But I want you to know I notice you. I see you relentlessly pushing onward. I see you keep choosing to do everything in your power to give your child the best possible care at home, in school, at therapy and the doctor.

What you’re doing matters. It’s worth it.

On those days when you wonder if you can do it another minute, I want you to know I see you. I want you to know you’re beautiful. I want you to know it’s worth it. I want you to know you aren’t alone. I want you to know love is what matters most, and you have that nailed.

And on those days when you have breakthroughs, those times when the hard work pays off and success is yours to cherish, I see you then too, and I am proud of you.

Whichever day today is, you’re worthy, you’re good, and I see you.

What Francheska does not realize (or knowing her she does know) is how many people her friends message impacted that day.  I am so thankful she shared on our Mom’s group.  I felt compelled to continue to share it because I want others to know I see you too. I see all you do and what you are doing matters. Keep going. Keep hoping. Keep loving. Even when obstacles, insurance, regressions, schedules, finances, wasp stings and speeding tickets  get in your way, find a new way.

Even though there has been more rougher days than good ones, the good ones that were sprinkled in there gave me such joy thanks to Cameron, my oldest. He recently was involved in a performance where he and his baseball family participated in. Great distraction and he made me so proud!

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Published by mamalamaneustupa

Bio My name is Shelley Neustupa. I am a mother of two cool boys and a wife of 22 years to my high school sweetheart. My oldest son attends the University of Oklahoma. Boomer! My youngest is in 2nd grade and was diagnosed with Autism and Mixed Receptive Expressive Disorder at age 2. Since his diagnosis, I promised him I would advocate and educate as hard as he works each day in therapy. I began writing and have been able to touch many parents that may be new to this journey providing them with actual experiences (not candy coated), support and resources through my entries. Writing is my therapy and my hope one day that my nonverbal son will be able to take these diaries and speak about his own journey and how autism relates to his own experiences. Who knows he and his older brother may become National Speaker’s one day? Come along on our journey to better understand our lives through the eyes of a boy with autism, his Skilled Companion dog Jude, his big brother (and best friend) and mom and dad. My raw vulnerability captures the everyday moments of our journey and will bring even more awareness. A week does not go by where we do not learn something new about ourselves and I want to share these chapters with you. My Sons Undeniable Strengths… Extremely smart and figures out things quickly. Has a memory that allows him to remember more things than I could ever hope for. Persuasive by his personality and sheepish looks. Overabundance of stamina and strength. Loves the outdoors. Enjoys life and always has fun with an unforgettable smile. You can find us here: Writer: Autism Through His Eyes Facebook Instagram YouTube Pinterest Canine Companions for Independence News Interview Cody and Skilled Companion Jude - Our Story

2 thoughts on “I See You

  1. I think this says it perfectly, we don’t have the challenges that you face daily, and would not understand if I didn’t have you and others I know that do. Just know that we are always here for you and family and your doing a wonderful job.

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