We have had more rougher days lately than good ones. I am working really hard and looking through the lens that Cody looks through daily and it reminds me that my days are not so bad. I struggle when times get tougher to post a blog because I like to keep the positivity. But I also have to be true to myself and remember the purpose for my writing is hopes to help others and for my own selfish reasons, it’s my therapy too.
Several weeks ago an amazing Mom named Francheska who I literally gravitated to at a Mom’s Night Out with the National Autism Association of North Texas over a year ago and she received a text she posted from a friend of hers.
I See You
I see you running your child to therapy when your friends are running their kids to Little League or ballet.
I see you slipping out of the conversation when your friends are all chiming in about milestones and test grades.
I see you constantly juggling appointments and meetings.
I see you sitting at your computer for hours researching what your child needs.
I see you cringe when people whine about what feels like petty things.
I see you spread thin but still going the extra mile for your family.
I see you digging for depths of strength you never dreamed you had.
I see you showing appreciation to the teachers, therapists and medical professionals who serve your child with you.
I see you rising early in the morning to do it all again after another chaotic night.
I see you when you’re hanging on to the end of your rope for dear life.
I know you feel invisible, like nobody notices any of it. But I want you to know I notice you. I see you relentlessly pushing onward. I see you keep choosing to do everything in your power to give your child the best possible care at home, in school, at therapy and the doctor.
What you’re doing matters. It’s worth it.
On those days when you wonder if you can do it another minute, I want you to know I see you. I want you to know you’re beautiful. I want you to know it’s worth it. I want you to know you aren’t alone. I want you to know love is what matters most, and you have that nailed.
And on those days when you have breakthroughs, those times when the hard work pays off and success is yours to cherish, I see you then too, and I am proud of you.
Whichever day today is, you’re worthy, you’re good, and I see you.
What Francheska does not realize (or knowing her she does know) is how many people her friends message impacted that day. I am so thankful she shared on our Mom’s group. I felt compelled to continue to share it because I want others to know I see you too. I see all you do and what you are doing matters. Keep going. Keep hoping. Keep loving. Even when obstacles, insurance, regressions, schedules, finances, wasp stings and speeding tickets get in your way, find a new way.
Even though there has been more rougher days than good ones, the good ones that were sprinkled in there gave me such joy thanks to Cameron, my oldest. He recently was involved in a performance where he and his baseball family participated in. Great distraction and he made me so proud!