Kindergarten: Circle Time

I never keep my feelings sheltered and instantly felt the need to express them today.  So many emotions when I look at this photo.


Nervous.  Excited.  Scared.  Hopeful.  Blessed.

Nervous:  Will his teacher know his Cody-isms?  When she is in front of the classroom and gives instructions, will he listen or give his nervous laugh or select on his iPad, I want run?  Will he look down at his communication device and start selecting random words over and over to escape like, Kelly Clarkson or Dining Room?  Will he then forget everything she says? But once she repeats and he completes the first step will he not be able to remember the next steps?  Will he then get frustrated or embarrassed because he can’t remember no matter how hard he tries?  Will he ask her to repeat the instructions verbally or through his iPad? Will it make him want to give up and type on his iPad, “Done. All Done. I want All Done.”  Or will he share that winning smile and complete the task with success?

Excited:  It will be a year of many “firsts.”  He will be exploring uncharted territory.   Just today, he was chosen to share the “letter of the day” with his entire Kindergarten room.  I was thinking about him standing in front of all his peers for the first time.  Deep down, was he scared? Or was he empowered? Did he like being in front of his peers?  This is new for us all. We are all not sure what to expect but he has great educators guiding and nudging him along the way.  Just look at his smile and her hand over hand at the same time her arm is draped across his shoulders to give him a sense of protection.

Scared:  I know I need to brace myself.  A whole slew of new issues will come up that Brad and I and our school team will need to handle. But, I need to remember every new issue that arises is an new opportunity for Cody to grow and learn. Change is difficult. Struggle means progress.

Hopeful:  Will he fit in with his peers?  Will he make a new friend? Will he take chances that challenge him?  Will he push his self to do new things? Will he be more engaged with his own peers?  I am very hopeful that this year will be a lot of growth, learning and joy.

Blessed: I know his school team wants his year to be successful and that they all have his best interest at heart.  This photo is just one more reminder of a patient and caring teacher that is encouraging him all along the way.  And what you don’t see in this photo is the amazing teacher who has guided and lead him for the last 2+ years taking him to circle time this morning and has prepared him for what to expect before entering his Kindergarten room.


Published by mamalamaneustupa

Bio My name is Shelley Neustupa. I am a mother of two cool boys and a wife of 22 years to my high school sweetheart. My oldest son attends the University of Oklahoma. Boomer! My youngest is in 2nd grade and was diagnosed with Autism and Mixed Receptive Expressive Disorder at age 2. Since his diagnosis, I promised him I would advocate and educate as hard as he works each day in therapy. I began writing and have been able to touch many parents that may be new to this journey providing them with actual experiences (not candy coated), support and resources through my entries. Writing is my therapy and my hope one day that my nonverbal son will be able to take these diaries and speak about his own journey and how autism relates to his own experiences. Who knows he and his older brother may become National Speaker’s one day? Come along on our journey to better understand our lives through the eyes of a boy with autism, his Skilled Companion dog Jude, his big brother (and best friend) and mom and dad. My raw vulnerability captures the everyday moments of our journey and will bring even more awareness. A week does not go by where we do not learn something new about ourselves and I want to share these chapters with you. My Sons Undeniable Strengths… Extremely smart and figures out things quickly. Has a memory that allows him to remember more things than I could ever hope for. Persuasive by his personality and sheepish looks. Overabundance of stamina and strength. Loves the outdoors. Enjoys life and always has fun with an unforgettable smile. You can find us here: Writer: Autism Through His Eyes Facebook Instagram YouTube Pinterest Canine Companions for Independence News Interview Cody and Skilled Companion Jude - Our Story

2 thoughts on “Kindergarten: Circle Time

  1. One day at a time is all we can do, and Cody Rivers approaches each day as a new adventure.
    He loves to learn and it is so evident in his beautiful smile. It is such an inspiration that you
    express your thoughts and concerns that makes us all aware of Cody’s journey. Thank you
    so much for sharing your blog.

    Liked by 1 person

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